Alright lovlies! I am back, have nice little antibiotics raging through my system, and couldn’t be happier. Guess who’s managed to get back down to 226 as of this morning? Yep! Me. This is where I left off after the Clean, Shape, Burn then started gaining back once I added things that weren’t just veggies and peanut butter. I was so confused, but in reality there was no way that that program was giving me a lifestyle I could follow. So after nursing (and honestly a lot of splurging) my body back to a good state, even if it was half the weight I lost back, I got back to Keto. And it’s been paying off! Even drinking daily cranberry juice which is like 40 carbs for one little unsweetened bottle I’ve managed to lose a total of about 4 pounds since last Wednesday. And yeah, I know, I pulled the scale out again. I’m not proud of this addiction, but I really am trying to break it. I’ll see if I can make it through the weekend without weighing again, though. Ugh, that’s gonna be tough since I’m on a downward trend!
But no worries, it’ll all be okay. Plus, even though I had to miss two days of work being couch bound, I am at least extremely well rested and ready for my entire weekend of work now, so silver lining. I can’t think of much else to report, though. However, this time last year I weighed 250 pounds (which is utterly depressing to me, but I’ve learned why), and in a year’s time I’ve collected to much information about my body and how it runs, and gotten rid of 24 pounds to date. Six more, and I’ll be at where I was for our wedding last November, and anything past that is the lightest I’ve been since before college. I am stoked to be on this journey of healing, and I am so glad you’re on it with me. If there’s anything you all need for support in your own journey, please let me know, and I’ll do what I can! Have a wonderful week, and I hope to have even better reports for you then!
Well good morning! So the news is that I’m another inch down on my waist but that’s about it for this week. I haven’t been eating the best, which normally wouldn’t be such a big deal, but the store has been out of my kombucha recently which has led to some nasty stomach aches for me this week. So headed to the store to pick up a few necessities before I have to work tonight. Speaking of work, I’m so torn right now. My dream job came available a couple days ago, and while I doubt I’d get it, I feel like I should still apply, except I am absolutely in love with my current path. Either way I believe I could be happy, but with the new opening I would be in a very fast paced, hour heavy job that finally utilizes my major, which my current job keeps me active with enough time to do my own art on the side when I feel like it. So I’m just praying about it, but again, there’s about a 1% chance I’d get it anyway, so no real stress.
As for these stomach aches, though, I have no idea what’s bringing them on. It was so bad the other day, when I bent over to grab something at work, I was convinced I was going to throw up right there and then. That is extremely unusual for me, but there was this rock like feeling in there for a few days. Not okay. I really need my kombucha *sad face*. Aside from that, I’ve recently been trying replacing my shampoo with raw honey and conditioning with apple cider vinegar. It’s been interesting. My dead ends are virtually gone, my hair feels much softer, but it feels like my dandruff has increased which is the opposite of what’s supposed to happen. You see, as stylecraze explains in their article at stylecraze.com/articles/amazing-benefits-of-honey-for-hair-growth/
Honey also comprises of antibacterial and antiseptic qualities too. This prevents our scalp from infections or psoriasis and tends to keep our scalp clean and bacteria-free. This also keeps us away from dandruff and itchiness on your scalp.
If your hair is dry or increased pollution and direct exposure to sun as made them lifeless, then use of honey can bring back that lost sheen and shine of your hair.
And it can help increase hair growth as well, which I think I’m seeing happen, though my hair is at a length that it’s hard to tell because it’s already long. So I like it, plus I know I’m not risking adding more chemicals to my body in my hair products, and it has been bringing out the curl in my hair. It’s exciting.
Now, since this *is* a weight loss blog, here’s my favorite recipe this week. I went to Target for groceries the other day, and discovered that they are now selling lamb in their meat section. I love lamb. And according to the blood type diet, it’s beneficial for me (B+ blood), so I picked up a couple packages of lamb leg for, I kid you not, $1.60 a package. I figured it was a miscalculation so I picked up two to give it a go while it was cheap and it came out amazing. I put all 8 pieces in the slow cooker after rubbing them in lawry’s salt, then covered them in red wine, and added rosemary and thyme with half a lemon. Then I grabbed a bundle of asparagus from the fridge, snapped the ends off, and layered them on top, drizzling them in a balsamic vinegar and sprinkle of pink sea salt. Cooked that for 4 hours, and as it came to an end, I made this mock Olive Garden white sauce.
2 cloves of garlic
1 stick of butter
2 tbs cream cheese
1 pint heavy cream
1 cup parmesan
salt and pepper to taste
Just add everything to a sauce pan over medium heat and stir until combined. This was honestly the best meal I’ve made in quite a while, and plan to make it again soon, plus that cream sauce is great for the fat intake on keto. That and it’s f’ing delicious. Hope you enjoy it as much as I did! And to answer your question, no I have not tried those work out DVDs yet… I have not had the energy at all to get myself to do any more than my job already requires of me, but I promise to give it a go this week. Until then, have a fantastic time, and love yourself.
Hi there everyone! What a week. We went back to St Louis for mother’s day, hit up food truck friday while we were there, and spent a lot of time with those two friends I set up (and yes, they’re doing great!). Mother’s day Sunday we ended up eating so much, but I a proud to say that even though we stuffed our faces at three different events, everything (almost) was on the diet. The only thing I went off a bit on was at my friend’s birthday with a few chips (so I could try the home made guac), and a spoon full of this like apple salad thing? So really nothing bad at all, and everything was so good everywhere we went. Mmmmmm.
And it’s been nice not weighing myself everyday. I’m realizing just how much guilt I feel when I eat anything. Mostly when it’s off diet, but it’s kind of overwhelming, and I’m doing that to myself! No wonder it’s so hard to lose weight! I eat to keep my body going, but am unconsciously releasing stress hormones just *because* I’m fueling my body. So I just need to calm down, and know that it’s ok if I eat things I’m not ‘supposed’ to. True, I shouldn’t choose the foods that hurt me, because as I said last week, that is me consistently poisoning my body with the excuse that “it’s not that much poison”. But that anti fungal diet was way too stressful. I don’t eat that much sugar in the first place, but the little I do is a bit of a treat for me. And when I say little, I really mean that. So this is one thing that my doctor has asked of me that I will not be doing (aside from using natural methods for birth control. I’m sorry, I am not disciplined enough to do all that it takes to not get pregnant without the pill and this lady is not at all ready for babies at this time).
That being said, I measured myself last Wednesday to I would have something to base my success on that was not the scale, and I’m happy to say that since last Wednesday I have lost two inches off my back/chest, one and half inches off my waist, and an inch off my hips. That is so much more satisfying than flexing numbers. I also wore a pair of 13/14 jeans last week, and while they were squeezing the bajeezus out of me, they fit, and it’s exciting because this is a band that tends to run small on me. So I’m going to keep up with Keto, and I even bought “The Keto Beginnings” book from Leanne (The Healthful Pursuit girl) to get some more advice on how to do a dairy free Keto diet. Exciting news is that my mom has committed to the plan after seeing how much my husband has lost, which is about 40 pounds since last summer. He’s amazing, and I want to be like him when I grow up!
So that’s about it for this week’s post. I’m okay and I’m on my way. My work gets me moving, but I’ve decided I want to start weight training if I can. It’s an area I have no experience in, so I would like to hire a personal trainer, but we absolutely have no money to that, so I have to settle for finding videos at the local library to get me on track. Thankfully, there is quite a selection. I picked up a couple ballet toning dvds while I’m waiting for the kettlebell dvd to come in, so I’ll let you know what I find on these next week! Have a fantastic week, and remember to make good choices, but don’t beat yourself up if you fall short. Until next Wednesday!
Hello my friends! It feels like it’s been forever and a day since I blogged last. This whole once a week thing is going to take some getting used to. But it’s given me some time to reflect on some things I have noticed myself doing. The biggest thing is self sabotage in my health. I’m not alone in this either, and it’s a huge problem. Whether your mindset be that you worked out hard. so you deserve an unnecessarily large dinner or that king size candy bar, or rather what I myself do, which is noticing a trend of losing weight and reasoning that one ‘bad’ meal that I’ve been craving won’t hurt too much. But that’s the problem. I have become okay with hurting myself at all, and reason that it’s not that much, so I shouldn’t care. But here’s the thing… I SHOULD CARE! Knowingly eating things that I know hurt my body is like knowingly drinking poison with the thought process of “well it’s not a big enough dose to kill me, so it’s ok”. That is literally what I do when I eat that pizza that I can’t get out of my head because my body has an addiction to the poison.
So how am I fixing this, you ask? First off I am going to do the hardest thing I can imagine… I am going to stop weighing myself. In the past, I have weighed myself daily (most days I weigh anytime I go to the bathroom, meaning multiple times a day), to see how food I ate effected my body. And, in the past, this has been extremely useful. This method helped me to learn what foods were causing plateaus (like dairy) and which ones were actually causing weight gain due to inflammation (like quinoa, pinto beans, and a whole list of other foods). But now I know the foods I can and cannot have and weighing is just an addiction. It’s something that takes me on an emotional roller coaster where I feel horrible about myself when I’m up, and feel the ease to self sabotage when I’m down, putting me in a vicious cycle. So for the next 30 days, my doctor wants me to go on an ‘anti fungal’ protocol, meaning, and this is surprisingly hard for me, no alcohol. I love wine. Every Sunday night, a friend and I split a bottle and watch Game of Thrones and have girl time. It’s only a month, but I’m honestly surprised how bummed out I am over this fact. And while I am going to do my best to follow this, there is one thing I will not give up, and that is coffee. This is one food that is still completely misunderstood, and as the years go by, more and more things are coming out about the benefits of the bean. Not to mention, it is a staple of my diet, since I am back on Keto and start my days with a dairy free, bulletproof coffee. If you’re wondering what my next 30 days are going to look like, here you go:
Now, I said I realized there were multiple things that I have realized about myself in the past week. The other thing is that I have realized through my life, I have suffered an almost body dysmorphic problem. I go through phases of so much self loathing and when I picture myself in my head it is so much worse than I actually am. It’s almost a relief to look in the mirror sometimes and realize I’m not a huge monster with a giant belly and sumo arms. I have weight to lose, yes, but I seem to be the only one who sees myself in such a bad light. Well, me and the 12 year olds on Reddit whose horrible comments led me to start this blog (https://iamnotfatblog.wordpress.com/2015/01/15/a-little-background). In any case, it is a daily struggle to remind myself that I am beautiful, the scale does not define who I am as a person, and my husband loves me exactly as I am. Heck, he proposed to me at my heaviest! That, and that I am NOT fat. My life has been two and a half decades of eating well, but not understanding my body, and not knowing that there was such a thing as food intolerance, and that inflammation can wreak havoc on every part of your life. But I know now, and I am on a journey to undo 24 years of ignorance and hopefully help some people on the way.
To finish up today, I found this amazing video with a short accompanying article. To sum it up, Cassey Ho has a youtube channel dedicated to helping people get healthy and learn new workouts. But, people on the internet being as horrible as they’re known to be, would make fun of her body (which is bangin’, so they can go… well, you know) as well as leave other nasty comments. So she did this, and it was brilliant. Enjoy. (Full story in link)
I Am Not Fat...But I Need to Lose Weight 